What a funny feeling

I have noticed over the past few days that I have been feeling a little bit weird lately. In fact, today I was able to put my finger on it. I feel...relaxed. I can't remember the last time that I felt truly relaxed. It's a good feeling just to be able to be. To not feel like I have to have a gigantic smile all the time and be energetic. Don't get me wrong I am still joyful, smily, enthusiastic Melany. But I guess that I am just having more relaxing chill moments. Does that make sense?

I feel like over the past few months I have been on a journey of de-stressing and I have noticed that it has really made a difference in my life. I definitely have to say that it is a work of the Lord. It's not something that I could do on my own. But, there are just certain things that don't affect me the way that used to. I feel at ease and am experiencing more and more peace each day. There have been times that it has definitely been the peace that passes understanding. My life is by no means perfect and there are many things on my mind and many things that break my heart. I guess that for me God's hands have gotten bigger. I know that He's got it. I know that He's got me. And right now, He is also taking me on a journey to learn to love who I am. It does not matter what others think of me (this one is definitely a work in progress - one step at a time and each step just sets me free more). It's all about my One. And while I am so grateful for all the people that He has placed in my life to challenge me towards growth, my God is the filter.

That's all. That's what is on my mind and I thought that I would share it.